One of my freewrites that I found written on July 4, 2006

Often times we get distracted by the unnecessary, the irrelevant - things that shouldn't matter. And we never pay attention to what's right in front of us. The goodness that's just right underneath our noses. The person in front of us. The opportunity that awaits us. The obvious. Instead, we always say we want the easy way out when we always make things complicated. It's a fucking cycle. We keep searching around for what we think we want but when we get it, we think we need more. We need substance. We need reassurance. We want more excitement. We want something new. We're never satisfied. We look around for what we want, when what we want is right in our faces. And when we realize it, it's too late. Opportunities are wasted. People are gone. What could have been turns into never happening. Then what if's turn into regrets. And we're back on that cycle again, hoping to find the obvious. The easy way out. The answer we want. When in reality, we missed it because we cared too much. Or we didn't care enough when the time was right.