Please tell me why as I get older it gets harder for me to find people to trust?
I'm coming to the point in my life where I'm learning who I truly need in my life and who truly matter in it. As if I've narrowed a million down to a handful only to hope those handful will stay with me forever. However, lately I've been stuck feeling lonely though. I guess maybe through all the chaos I've been going through I still don't know how to let people in when times get rough. Making that few handful I trust with my heart the few who can never really distinguish when I'm truly smiling or just hiding behind one.
I'm coming to the point in my life where I'm learning who I truly need in my life and who truly matter in it. As if I've narrowed a million down to a handful only to hope those handful will stay with me forever. However, lately I've been stuck feeling lonely though. I guess maybe through all the chaos I've been going through I still don't know how to let people in when times get rough. Making that few handful I trust with my heart the few who can never really distinguish when I'm truly smiling or just hiding behind one.
"Let's make a list of who we need.
But it's not much if anything.
And we'll throw it away because we don't need anyone."
But it's not much if anything.
And we'll throw it away because we don't need anyone."
As you can tell, life's got me in a whirlwind right now. So much so, I've become anti-social because of it. And to think of it I'm only going to be more distant as the days go by. So don't be offended. Blame school, blame $, & I blame him. The relief to all this madness is to stay busy right?
Plus everyone keeps telling me to focus on myself for once and I think I'm actually going to. It's about time I take care of myself & let go. I need to let go. I need to get over him completely, find myself a career path finally, & eat more than I can chew. But most importantly, I need to breathe. For too long I've been suffocating from all this stress, I've lost my true purpose in all that I love to do. I feel like I've become too dependent on others for happiness lately that I've lost my own. So I'm gonna use this semester to not party or create a ruckus with ya'll, I'm gonna use this semester to find myself. To be me again... before I met anyone to begin with.
Plus everyone keeps telling me to focus on myself for once and I think I'm actually going to. It's about time I take care of myself & let go. I need to let go. I need to get over him completely, find myself a career path finally, & eat more than I can chew. But most importantly, I need to breathe. For too long I've been suffocating from all this stress, I've lost my true purpose in all that I love to do. I feel like I've become too dependent on others for happiness lately that I've lost my own. So I'm gonna use this semester to not party or create a ruckus with ya'll, I'm gonna use this semester to find myself. To be me again... before I met anyone to begin with.
