Chillin'.

It's not a surprise, I am a chill person.

If you ask anyone who knows me well to describe me in one word most would say, "yeah, she's chill." And if you were to ask my best friend, how I am he'd say, "passive." Meaning, I guess I don't say much unless I really feel like I need to. As if not much emotion is evident unless it's something I'm truly crazy about.

Haha, and yes... I'd have to agree. Those one-word testimonials sounds about right. It's true I really don't say much unless I want to. Unless I feel it's necessary. I feel like it's a hassle for me to talk if I don't want to. Call me lazy or selective, but I just hate talking too much under the unnecessary. To me, it's just a waste of good tongue to be talking about bullshit.

So I write.

Last week, I was talking to my dad about my career choices and we talked for a long while about what I'm doing with my life. Considering I have about a little over a year and half before the real world takes over, he was just giving me that career "talk" that all parents worry about when their sons/daughters aren't pre-med. And as a Filipino parent has always been known to do, he was playing the devil's advocate in this case. He was telling me that he supports me in all I want to do, but again, at the same time feels that this career path of mine isn't something I should pursue completely without a back up plan. It's clear he's worried that my voice won't be heard and that my "chill" and "passive" ways won't get me to where I want to be right away. Basically, he's just throwing me warning signs so I know what to do when my ambitious mind doesn't get me where I want to be.

Which is something I completely understand but I think not many folks understand about me is that I'm a different person when I write.

For some weird reason, I'm not myself when I get a story underneath my belt. I mean, I'm still my shy self and I still hesitate to ask random people questions, but I somehow have this drive in me to just avoid it. I could say nothing one minute, but write a million words the next. It's one thing for me to say something than for me to write it. A conversation I usually wouldn't come across would be the story I can't stop writing about.

I'm on and off like that. I talk too much or too little. It just depends. I'm one person split into two. Simple, I'm a damn Gemini.

So don't worry about me.


My writing is louder than my own words. And it'll get me somewhere.