in 10 days: jet skiing, snorkeling, para-sailing, surfing, tanning, swimming, hiking, dancing, walking, meeting new folks, & being surrounded by locals = pure bliss
but now I'm on to "Sin City" w/ the family. Talk about another spontaneous trip, yeah? Promise, I'll update w/ pics & everrrrrythang when I get settled back in the city.
*Countdown to school: exactly one week.
So hope ya'll are livin' up the last few days of summer. YEE!
so a lot of shit has been going down. a lot of words/poetry have been written. a lot of changes have been occurring. i'm leaving for a southern california road trip on wednesday. i passed all my classes last session :], and dropped all my classes this session. *chuckles* now i work, actually work work. what has been going on. i'm trying to recall. jordan sent me a really sweet message. i'm actually dealing with past situations, and finding the truth in myself and in my situations-which is chill. i shaved half my head. of course, my dad doensn't like it. i've overdrafted possibly 12 times.
i went to the frida kahlo exhibit. have been drinking/smoking a lot of herb. have four plants right now chilling on the deck. apparently, ishi is now an indoor/outdoor cat. *shrugs* kind of makes me sad. I'm actually looking for a bigger place. I'm sketched that i'm turning twenty-one and graduating. Maybe not so much scared as much as i am paranoid of what this year will bring. my landlord is fucking crazy. still. i visited ayleen in frisco. that was a really good day. $1.50 pizza, rocks. i've met serena's parents. and sonya's dad. they're really rad. i'm actually really stoked to be a part of their companionship i guess. i mean, im not going to lie. this summer has been really challenging and lonely for me because i find myself missing what i know as 'my family' of friends. and the girls haven't been in my life since jan. and a lot has just happened, you know? and a lot of things are happening that i'm sure will change things, too. so i'm trying to bank on the fact that... certain friends will still be around, and support me-because that's what i'm really scared of. graduating w/ no family members left, rebuilding/restructuring my relations/situations spring quarter of my senior year, and being super depressed off it. because i've made a decision for myself this summer. but, don't get me wrong. i know, i created the situation, have to handle it, and take responsibilities for its consequences. i know. but, i also know i don't deserve shit either. you know? anyways, i'm going to leave you with a few photos. and i had the most hilarious conversation with my boss, angela today that went along the lines of. angela: what happened? me: brr, idk angela: wow me: i obviously had a really long night angela: you shouldn't do that to yourself me: haha, i know angela: oh wow, its on the other side, too me: *walking towards door* wow, this is like really embarrassing, now angela: no, its just amusing me.
erin is in europe. i really miss her. heh, its still hard for me to pass by APT. 14. wink wink, nudge nudge. i get to see jordan, soon. i'm going to fucking miss my homeslice, lyn pag. hawaii without me. damn. TANYA. tanya is what im fucking after, and i'm bringing my guitar. sonya altered my life in the matter of days. i'm glad we got passed our first impressions.
it's 2:20 am and i'm here chillin' with Luther Vandross singing "Never too much" to me... on repeat. please tell me wassup with this image?
CLASSIC.
so... i predict the next few days in August are gonna go by quick. so quick actually that i wish i could slow down time. with Hawaii coming up in 3-4 days, Bals leaving in less than 2 weeks ( BOO! :[ ), Arjel arriving in between those days, & school coming at the end of the month i'm left with an unfinished checklist. sucks. which is still crazy to me considering at the beginning of summer, it felt like we had too much time. i remember we used to waste days drinking 40's while still being responsible enough to work, play ball at 1 in the morning, & explore the city. we were livin' like royalties. but now? we're on a time limit. it's fucking August & we only have enough time for 27 more days (or less) to do that kind of shit. which basically sucks the spontaneity out of summer a bit. but whatever!
hokayyy, so with that said the plan tomorrow should be cool. we're planning on going to the farmer's market in the morning, then rainforest cafe, possibly shopping?, then idk what else after. it's pretty much up in the air. basically a typical spontaneous adventure in the city for Bals & i on a Saturday. ekkkkkkksiiiiiiting. so we'll see where we end up. i pray though we stay out of the clear this time and out of trouble. no more weird happenings on the bus, PLEASE. damn.
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