Soul Clap

"I take peace if he give his piece of 'I.' We share piece of mind."

Up Dharma Down - "Oo"

'Di mo lang alam
Ako'y iyong nasaktan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Puro s'ya na lang
Sana'y ako naman
'Di mo lang alam
Ika'y minamasdan
Sana'y iyong mamalayang hindi mo lang pala alam

'Di mo lang alam
Kahit tayo'y magkaibigan lang
Bumabalik ang lahat sa tuwing nagkukulitan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Ako'y nandito lang
Hindi mo lang alam
Matalino ka naman
---

Armi's voice makes Tagalog sound so much sweeter.

Writer's crisis.

Stuck in a funk. Again.

For the past 3 hours I've been diligently trying to do my homework. Since I got this piece due at 1:30, another mini essay due at 3:30pm and a grillin' seminar session at 6:00pm I AM STACKED for Monday. But wtf have I been doing? Instead of actually writing, I've been trying to find ways to inspire my writing.

I've been flippin through my playlists, digging through my CDs trying to find the perfect song to get me going. I've been trying to feel that perfect beat that'll drive my mind towards creation. I've been trying to hear that perfect rhyme that'll inspire me to spill words onto the page. I've been using all kinds of words, lyrics, and music to try to get me inspired. But not one single song or beat has won me over.

So I've turned to this: blogging? Yes.

One of the best pieces of advice I've ever been given as a writer is that when you're stuck in a funk, just write. Write anything down. Write disconnected words all over the page, type out unfinished sentences, scribble emotions down... anything. I've been told to just write and don't erase anything cause some of the best pieces of work are created from fcked up jumbled minds and hella crumpled up paper.

So here I am just writing for the sake of writing hoping to get something filtered through my mind and down towards the ends of my fingertips.

Neurosonics Audiomedical Labs Inc.

Something I just found from browsing through FindHype.

Neurosonics Audiomedical Labs Inc. from Chris Cairns on Vimeo.

p.s. Hopefully I'll be posting a real one soon. Sorry the lag. Material's coming...

Head straight, mind right.
Out of sight, out of mind.

Inspire me.

You cannot find your soul with your mind, you must use your heart. You must know what you are feeling. If you don't know what you are feeling, you will create unconsciously. If you are unconscious of an aspect of yourself; if it operates outside your field of awareness, that aspect has power over you.

- Gary Zukav

"Bad" vice(s)

Alright ya'll, don't even act like you don't got a bad habit. Prettyyyy sure everyone does. You, yo mama, yo mama's mama, your next door neighbor, your gardener, your librarian... whatever. We all got one. Everyone's got some lingering temptation or that guilty pleasure they all attempt to resist... but can't. It's that "bad vice" we got that makes us feel good for the time being, until we realize it's really not ideal. For some, it could be as simple and deadly as smoking while for others it's as complicated as staying in "love"with that person who constantly hurts you. Bad vices range, but in the end it's all something we gotta crack. No matter how good it feels.

I guess what inspired me to write bout this is cause I just read a piece about this girl's bad vice that got me wondering what mine are? So here's my attempt to figuring out what I think my "bad" vice(s) are. Let's see if ya'll can relate.

1.) Cussing - Pretty sure if my life was documented and recorded, I'd sound like a Lil Wayne track. My potty mouth would be censored within every sentence. Tha fck you know bout this shit?
2.) Drunk texting - If you've received one in the past week, it's just cause I love you.
3.) Collecting hats and headbands - I buy this shit all the time but I fail to wear them often (lately at least).
4.) Creating/writing in blogs - Just made one with Baleria on Tumblr: fckminetoo; it's like my 9th one.
5.) Cupcakes - Anything cupcakes. Printed cupcakes, cupcake photos, cupcake cakes, cupcake jewelry, all of that... it's a must have.
6.) Coloring my hair - I've had everything from purple to blonde to platinum, magenta, brown, red, and blue.
7.) K, by far... this is my worst habit. When things are goin' good, I bounce. I act like I don't want it, when I really do. Am I difficult enough?
8.) Eating past midnight every night - I am definitely on my way to making that ugly ass muffin top happen if I don't change, haha.
9.) Twilight - Thinking I'll get an "Edward Cullen" through my window.
10.) Talking shit - 'Nuff said.

womp womp

i need to find that "RESET" button.

lasdkfj;asl...

can't sleep again. so i'm watching YouTube vids..... again. my sleeping pattern really should fix itself soon. really.

That girl from Elf... what's her name?

for awhile i was calling Zooey Deschanel: "that one girl from Elf." i know, i should get half-slapped for that one. but whatever! no need to slap me now cause i know my shit, okay?



its true. i enjoy her stale humor. but what gets me more so is her voice. whenever i listen to her group, She & Him, their music somehow always triggers that white part of me when i was a freshman in high school and was in love with indie music (& boys on skateboards). it brings me back to those days, hahaha.




and now that she has a new movie coming up with 3rd Rock From The Sun homeboy, Joseph Gordon-Levitt, i reallyy reallyyy wanna watch it! it doesn't look like your typical love story. but it definitely kinda looks like your typical indie film love story. if that makes sense? add 500 days of Summer to my summer watching movie list. maybe it'll hold me down and get me ready for when Paper Hearts comes out.

Lemme direct you this way...

it's Thursday ya'll. so guess what? i posted on 12ft today.

as of late i've been stuck in a bad funk, so this post couldn't have come at a better time. i finally wrote something that didn't take me hours to write. i finally wrote something that flowed freely from mind to paper.

but the post i wrote this week was a little different. maybe that's what i needed to get my writing mojo back? but anyway, this week i didn't have any interviews again, i instead wrote about myeslf for once. i actually let the reader into my mind for a bit. i wrote from the heart (as cheesy as it sounds) and without hesitation. and hopefully killed off the writer's block for a bit to finally articulate what i've been struggling to say for several days now. so take a peek, i rarely ever talk about my personal life on 12ft.

peep: http://12ftdwende.com/family/?p=1207

Insomnia speaks

it's 4:34am and i can't sleep.

Can We Teach Each Other - Cody ChesnuTT