yo, president.

"Change will not come if we wait for some other person or some other time. We are the ones we've been waiting for. We are the change that we seek."

- President Barack Obama

CNN.com (More photos)

like everyone else in this country, i'm curious about our new President. so while i was diggin for info on CNN the other day, my friend showed me this album the folks at CNN & TIME magazine made that displayed pictures of Obama during his college years. after surfing through at a few pictures, i started to think: "wow, this is our president?" this image of the college boy smoking a stog in a fedora hat is our president. cool beans.

Sharks gear for the Sharks fan.

so Jayson showed me this cool hat from Gold Coin. i like it, i wouldn't mind sporting these at the Shark tank. it definitely fits into my Sharks attire anyway.



when i get my first paycheck, i'll cash this baby in!

let the overwhelming begin.

“Just remember, the same as a spectacular Vogue magazine, remember that no matter how close you follow the jumps: Continued on page whatever. No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That's how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice. None of this matters. We're just warming up.”

- Chuck Palahniuk

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Spring semester starts in approximately 3 days and i'm trippin. ever since one of my classes got cancelled, i've been on the lookout to see which classes would open up. the program i'm in right now is packed. all the classes i could take for my major are all closed and the only way to get into them would be to show up on the first day of class with luck on my side or to personally email the teacher begging them to let me in.

i did neither.

instead, i talked to my advisor of the department letting him know i was pretty screwed for this semester cause i was really hoping to take that class. and now that it was cancelled, my units are messed up. but he reassured me that i have absolutely nothing to worry about, that he'd do the best he could to enroll me in one of the closed classes. so after much deliberation and discussion, he chose a class for me. he looked straight into my eyes and said, "i think you're ready. i'm gonna sign you up for this honors seminar. i'm emailing the teacher right now."

the only thing that went through my mind was "um, i guess?"

it's a little intimidating considering the word "honors" is plastered in front of the course title. i mean, i've taken honors + AP courses before, but c'mon that was high school. so to take one in college? shit can't be easy. i imagine it to be filled with 20 page papers, 4 hours of discussion, and documentary films i have to analyze and somehow create within only weeks of research. it's intimidating... especially since i spoke to the teacher through email. she sent me a personal email in regards to the class telling me she's happy to have me with an attachment of the letter she sent to students who were already enrolled in the class. and i figure after reading that letter, this class seemed like an "invitation only" seminar. meaning, i assume she chose these students to be in her class. she hand-picked them for whatever reason.

and me? am i just the lucky girl who got in because they "think" i can handle it? i may be trippin and overlooking this, but i'm feeling the overwhelming rush come at me already.

don't get me wrong though, i feel extremely honored to be able to take the class. i feel great that they have so much confidence in me to take the class, that they put that kind of trust in me. i feel priveleged. but i also feel the challenge ahead of me. i feel like i have to step it up and step outside of my box in order to pass this class -- in order to prove myself. pretty sure i know the folks enrolled are out of my league and are probably the classmates i've already had who intimidate the hell out of me. ugh. but fck it, right? it's about time i suck it up and speak up. #$%^&*#@!!!!

and yep, Barrio's coming up too, i figure this semester is gonna be a killer. fkn' kill me. i have just 3 more days... and my freedom is over for awhile.

good riddance.

if i could i'd wear this $h!t everyday.

it's that time of season again and i need new gear...






i've had the same jacket and pants since i first started boarding and that was 4 seasons ago. i need a change. maybe a little more color?





yep, burton is going crazy with their designs now. color overload!!!

Oh, It Is Love - Hellogoodbye

got cupcakes on my shirt.

yes, Johnny Cupcakes has just added to my obsession.


(photos from johnnycupcakes.com)

the story behind this vintage-bakery clothing shop is pretty neat. the owner basically just turned an on-going joke into a multi-million dollar limited edition clothing/accessories line by taking a chance. from the website it says, he just took his nickname "johnny cupcakes" and began playing with it. so much so that eventually he found a cool design for it and ran with it. eventually folks began to notice these cupcake shirts and wanted a piece of it. then finally in 2005, he opened up his own shop in Boston (still keeping in mind that he still wanted to play on his on-going joke) so he decorated his whole store and made it look like a bakery. there's a vintage fridge, old-looking ovens, and even hidden vanilla air freshners around his story to make it look, feel, and smell like a real bakery. the boxes that the shirts come in also come in little bakery boxes too.




(photos from johnnycupcakes.com)

cool huh? i just think the whole concept behind his shop and his shirts are so cute. it seriously just feeds my growing love for cupcakes even more. who would've known though that an inside joke w/ friends could actually turn into a money maker? i want me some cupcakes!

(more about the story here)



p.s. there's a Johnny Cupcakes on the West Coast now. YEE! for all you SoCal folks, there's one on Melrose. lucky beezies! i fucking forgot to go there!

p.s.s. for the city kids, Johnny Cupcakes is in SF! go to blondies, eat a pizza with him. hahaha

Tweet, tweet.

as a journalism student in a Media Studies department, my professors are always egging us onto try new and different media sources (online specifically) to better enhance our skills for the real world. considering that now, newspapers are declining and everyone owns a blog nowadays, it's difficult to get a job or even be the first person to leak out juicy news. with that in mind, my Media Studies and journalism professors keep introducing us these new technologies and networking sites that are supposed to put us "ahead of the game" for a job. so during fall semester of last year, i took this special topics class called, "Intro to New Media" that was pretty much an experimental class made to explore internet's evolution in networking, streaming, blogging, and media altogther. i took it with a professor who was very much interested in the internet world and its enhancements. we learned studied about the effects of the media world today in collaboration with the world wide web and looked into specific sites such as Digg, which was a bookmarking/networking site (much like an interactive RSS feed), Current tv, a do-it-yourself video posting/channel site, and Twitter.com, a site i just recently joined.

Twitter is basically another networking site that allows you in on what your friends are doing when they're on or off the internet. it's that in-between time kind of update. as Baleria says, "it's like indirectly talking to someone" and updating them about what you're up to. in more simplier terms, it's just like a facebook status update, but having only that and no wall posts and picture tagging. that's pretty much the gist of it.

all my professors are using it. my journalism professor who's probably in his mid 50's loves it. he considers this a good networking site for journalists but we'll see.

join now and be my friend! haha

p.s. i promise to update about LA soon. i just gotta get back to the city to get my usb chord!

off the map.

here's a quickie for ya, don't worry i am alive.

ever since Winter Break started, i've been all over the place. i knew i was going to move houses, but i didn't know it was going to affect my location so much. and i definitely didn't know most places i'd be going to would be without internet so that explains my lack of updates. i've been absent for awhile, i apologize.

but right now i'm staying at my bro's in San Jose, so i'm sure i'll get to update more tonight. till then, here's a list of where i've been within the past 2 and a half weeks non-stop.

San Jose
North Highlands
San Francisco
Los Angeles
San Francisco
North Highlands
San Jose

i hate being on the move, seirously. i'm just lucky we haven't tried out-of-state yet. thank gawd.

noise blockers.

after two years of listening through uncomfortable generic iPod earpieces, i feel i need to move onto bigger and better sources of earful nourishment. i need me some (skullcandy) headphones. or something like these. i need an upgrade, yo.

so i've M.I.A. lately...

and have just been keeping in touch with folks through my laptop. i'm starting to miss folks in 3D. i blame it on finals. just one more day though!!! and i'm free to hug everyone :)

Shh... don't bother me.

project capitu_botafago @ rio de janeiro, (c) woostercollective

i have never been so happy to hear silence in my entire life till today. it feels so good right now to be chillin' in my apartment doing absolutely nothing. to be lazy, to be carefree, to feel like i have no worries in the world, my mind and body is at rest for once. i feel at peace... i'm happy.

so i guess you can say that today's my recovery day from this past week's hell rush. just thinking about what i went through this past week just makes my left eye twitch. it was that baaaaaaad. okay, try writing a 20 page paper in one night while simultaneously trying to read New Moon for fun? yeah, not a good idea. on top of that, going back and forth to SoMA to interview people and to take pictures. then to 3-4 different books stores just for a book that isn't even required for class, but is just for my amusement? yeah, this week was intense. i'm definitely happy it's over. although, next week's a different story. (wish me luck).

so back to today...

i woke up exhausted. while i was still in bed, i called my boss and told her i was "sick again." i made sure i called her right when i woke up so my voice was still a little rusty. and hey, she bought it. although, i felt cruel doing that... i felt like it was good for me. because aside from the story interview i had at noon, i got to rest well. the 3 hour nap was worth it since i find myself not looking like such a pale "vampire" anymore. no offense to those real vampires out there though, i just don't look good in pale like Edward Cullen does. (yeah i said it!)

okay lemme focus again...

like i was saying, today has been fucking lazy. my roomie and i went to Starbucks today after watching the Warriors game and got ourselves some yummy hot chocolate in red cups. then we went to Walgreens to buy some junk food. after, we found ourselves watching holiday movies, one being Elf. i swear, if i could have two famous best friends in the world it'd be #1: Conan O'Brien and then my #2: Will Ferrel. seriously. so yeah obviously, the movie got us into the holiday mood cause i really wanna buy a hideous christmas sweater right now. you know, the one's that your grandma or crazy aunt would wear with the huge tree on the front knitted on top of the 3D bell hanging from her left shoulder. yeah, that one. i want one.

cool huh? okay, i really should get back to my book right now. (plus, this post seems super ADD) i figure since i've already ditched a party, ignored several phone calls, and now have just blogged tonight... i feel i deserve some time with my book now. so don't bother me or else i'll get angry and go vampire on you.

g'nite.

gahdamn you, Edward Cullen.

lemme just get this off my chest real quick...

THE TWILIGHT SERIES IS DRIVING ME INSANE.

completely insane. i'm not even overexaggerating here when i say it's affecting my school work because i'm pretty damn sure i'm not the only one struggling to make a grade knowing there's soooo much more to read about vampires. i'm hooked.

and to think i used to knock the series when i first heard about it months ago. i thought the series was just gonna be a lame adult version of Harry Potter meets Buffy kind of love story. but damn, i was so wrong cause it's probably just like all of what i was thinking and all of what i didn't think of... all on crack and then some. (whoa, did you get that?) my imagination's killin' me right now. now i know why the Border's guy told me folks usually finish the series in less than a month. this shit IS addicting. and i think i'm addicted now.

and it doesn't help that my imagination just won't stop. especially since now i'm done with Twilight and i'm onto New Moon, my mind's takin' off and it's on it's own. it won't lemme concentrate on writing any of my articles, final papers, or anything. all i wanna do is grab a damn copy, watch the movie all over again, and talk to Val & Bianca about vampires. i feel so nerdy, it almost hurts. but i'm also proud at the same time. i never knew i could be so much into a fictional book at this age. i haven't been this into reading about fictional characters since i was a kid. i haven't read a book this intriguing or interesting in so long. mad kudos to the writer cause homegirl definitely knows how to catch a reader's attention and keep it. with the words she uses, the way she describes every little action each character makes, and the way she portrays each event... leaves the reader wishing things like this would happen in real life.

but too bad it DOESN'T! ugh, what a tease. but a real good one though, haha.

alright, so i'm thinking i'm pretty much in trouble when i get into the second book cause if i'm already feeling this preoccupied and anxious after the first one, just imagine me after the second. i'll probably have no friends and horrible grades cause i'll be occupying my days reading in my room alone.

oh well, i'm too cool anyway.



again, damn you Edward Cullen.
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**EDIT// [12:02a]

i'm probably gonna regret writing that shit up there later. i'm a little embarrassed by my rant of subtle obsession.

Dear Beautiful,

Happy muthafuggin' Holidays! Give us a hug.

Love,
Ann & Aileen